idk what to do.. he says that hes not passionate anymore..but he loves me… although that loves changed a lil bit. he doesnt know if were going to separate yet.. were just in this place where he neeeds to think and i just keep crying. Its partly my fault.. and he said that he cant show me the same affection that i show him everyday and he knows it hurts me..and i guess hes tired of it hurting me..idk.. lastnight we slept without even touching.. and our whole 5 months together we always held hands or hugged. It was so lonely. and i woke up at 5 am crying and i hugged hi. and he hugged me back. but its not the same.. i keep crying and he just sits there. im prolly freaking him out cause he hasnt even made a decision yet. but i just keep crying.. and hes trying to make it seem as if everything isnt as bad as it is… he’s trying to be normal about it.. but i cant. i see all the memories of us together and i cry… i think about all the memories we havent made yet.. and i cry. i remember how i spoke to him about getting married a while back and how he entertained the idea.. and now, knowing that it might be coming to an end.. its crashing down and im so lost. i dont know how ill handle this. [however that may sound so dramatic im sorry] but im so scared…i cant bear the thought of someone else in our room..someone else having those memories with him. i dont know if i can let him go if we separate. I dont want to lose him..but i admit…if he want to separate than ill leave so he can be happy. ~thanks for listening. <3